How fat can I be?
So I log onto the board, and I have a computer telling me "It appears that you have not posted on our forums for several weeks. Why not take a few moments to ask a question, help provide a solution, or just engage in a conversation with another member?" Well, here goes.
I have really been feeling good about getting back into shape. I know that I was stretching out a 5X shirt, and believe me folks that isn't an easy task. I have been riding my fat little ass off on the bicycle, and can now comfortably ride a 20 mile trip including the, for lack of better words, hill that I live on. I leave the house, head up to the top of the hill, drop down the other side, ride around town, and make my way back around up the hill again. With a straight route and no farting around, it's an 11.5 mile loop, and I did it today averaging about 11 mph. I am now wearing a 2X shirt, which I feel good about, but today has been a real test.
We spent Easter at a relative's new house. As he was showing us around the house, we got to the master bedroom and bath. Well there on the floor sat a new scale. I dragged behind the tour and let them all head on to the next room. So I step on the scale after checking to make sure it was properly set. The ******* thing didn't stop spinning until it hit 290.. 290 pounds. Two hundred and ninety ****ing pounds.
I can't even begin to explain how depressing that is. I am sitting here typing this about to break down. I have been through a lot of depressing times in my life, and I have to say, stepping off that scale today was way more depressing than just about anything I have been through. It **** up the whole day for me and here it is 1 AM, and it isn't getting any better. I know, I have made progress and all, but I am two hundred and ninety &%^#%^ pounds. I don't understand how my poor legs are pedalling my ass up this mountain I live on. Why my heart hasn't just exploded is beyond me. My poor bike..
Even more depressing is that all I can think now is, "Exactly how ******* fat was I when I started this?" I have a hard time believing my family wasn't just embarassed as hell to be seen with me, and christ, I am still not exactly a small guy.
I am not going to stop exercising, and working at this, but wow, that was a serious kick in the nuts.
There, message board software, are you HAPPY!!!